Post by DarkSunShine on Mar 16, 2005 21:44:50 GMT -5
I know what you are going through. Believe me. I often find myslef looking in at myself alomost as if im looking in a window. like im helpless to what i say or do. My family is not even the least bit understanding. Everyone is perfect, my sister is the pride and joy of my father and stepmother, my brother is the most popular guy in school, and i am the baby of the family. 10 years i lived with my mom. but 5 years ago i finally got to know my father, and i have been living with him ever since. Dont get me wrong i love my family, but it feels like they only listen or acknowledge me because its thier job. the only person in my life that listens to me is my ex boyfriend/my bestfriend. when i was 14 i was raped by a friend of the family. i have only told him(my bestfriend) this. and now of coarse you. Why it is so easy to tell you all this, i dont know. I guess its because you have know idea who i am, and i have no idea who you are. i am spilling my heart out to people that i know i will never meet, but that i know share the same isolation problems as me. i myself and a few of my close friends share the extreme interests in the vampire myths. I love ann rice and the way she portrays the vampires. eversince i can remember i have had a fetish/fascination for vampires. And long to know the truth about them, i do not know if they are real or fake. but if they are real i would do anything in my power to become one. i find them beautiful yet powerful. thankyou for listening to me spill myself to you and space. i hope to hear replies, and wish to find someone to understand.
Best of wishes to all that pass through my life~DarkSunShine
Best of wishes to all that pass through my life~DarkSunShine